Now just when I thought Gods love me more than anyone else in the world, I get faced with terrible snow storm.
For a long time I have enjoyed a favor of Gods, an easy life without work, very high intelligence, being generally likable and popular, more free time than anyone else in the world, being able to sleep for 12 hours a day where most other people cant get 8 hours of sleep, being born in enough wealth and sufficiently educated in economics to not just waste wealth but also make more of it, and also being a good person, maybe even morally best person in the world.
For this reason, I assumed Gods love me much more than other people, because why would Allah or Shiva give this much to a person they dislike, and give terrible suffering and stupidity to many other people?
However, today, my faith was a bit shaken. Apparently, a delivery of important item was delayed due to a snow storm.
Stupid snow storm. Why couldnt Gods wait few more days before punishing the world with snow storm?
Now, they were saying snow storm will be worse in my area, but it isnt because Gods still prefer me over other people.
But I cant understand why was I hit with snow storm in the first place. I dont mind snow, in fact I love snow deity.
But problem is that delivery will now likely be 10 days late, when it was supposed to arrive today.
Why couldnt snow deity wait a few more days before sending snow storm?
Usually, in life, I am used to everything happening as I want it, because I think my will aligns perfectly with God's will, and then logically everything must happen according to my will.
But today, it seems my will is delayed.
Delayed by a stupid snow storm.
Why cant I have everything in life as I want it?
Because logically, I think I should have everything I want, because thinking that I shouldnt have something I want is a logical contradiction.
So I do science, religion and magic to achieve what I want, which is universal excellence.
But I can see why snow storm delayed my will. It is because today I was supposed to draw symbols, and the symbols drawn on my arms were washed off, but I didnt draw symbols today, so I couldnt properly connect to God's will, so God didnt know what I want.