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So someone, but I won't say who, told me on discord that I am incapable of feeling guilt, shame and empathy, and thus told me that I am sociopath.

Well, for guilt, I knew. I am incapable of feeling any guilt. I don't know why. I just don't feel it. I never felt guilt in my whole life. I don't even know how that feels like, because my brain is programmed to assign blame to anything but me.

Now, shame, I can grant too. I don't think I feel much shame. Maybe I did as a kid, but now it's almost zero shame feeling. Literally no shame.

But empathy I can't really grant. Mainly because a lot of things I do are specifically for benefit of others. I don't drive a car for sole reason of not wanting to harm nature, and cars do harm nature. I also donate to charity, which has not much personal benefit to it. I also oppose or support a lot of things which are of no personal benefit to me to oppose or support, such as laws on corporal punishment, circumcision, pollution, speeding...ect.

So do I have empathy? I don't know. Maybe what I feel isn't empathy? But still, why does it cause me emotional pain if it's not empathy?

So I can grant that I can't feel guilt or shame, but I am pretty sure I am feeling empathy. Sometimes even too much empathy so I gotta drink and smoke to stop the feelings.

I also have a lot of empathy towards myself, a quality many people lack.

Even if we were to accept that logic exists (in form of law of identity only), these premises follow:

P1. In each closed system of limited claims, each claim is dependent on "something" to prove itself true.

P2. that "something" can only be law of identity itself

P3. If it is not law of identity, then claims are essentially unproved by law of identity

P4. It is impossible in a closed system of limited number of claims to prove that all claims actually follow law of identity

P5. Premise 4 is true due to forced infinity regress or circularity any time when all claims in a system are questioned.

For each claim, someone can ask "Why is that true?", forcing any closed system to either run out of proved claims, or force circularity. And this is true even when we accept law of identity as valid.

"bachelor is unmarried man"

Why is that claim true?

"Because it follows law of identity"

Why is that claim true?

"Because bachelor is defined as unmarried man"

Why is that claim true?

"Because society assigned such definition"

Why is that claim true?

"Because society exists and we observe it"

Why is that claim true?

"You are observing it too"

Why is that claim true?

"You are doing infinite regress fallacy"

Why is that claim true?

"I see you do it"

Why is that claim true?

the question "Why is that claim true?" can be repeated endlessly for all claims made by any closed system of claims.

Godel noticed this in math and made few incompleteness theorems, however, math isnt the only thing suffering from the very same problem.

If all claims need proof, no system of closed claims can prove all claims true in the system.

"And why is that true?"

P1. Doing good to someone requires fulfilling their need when they themselves cant fulfill it.

P2. Evil means someone has a need which isnt fulfilled

P3. "Fulfilling someone's need" requires that someone has a need which isnt fulfilled

P4. "Fulfilling someone's need" requires existence of evil

P5. Doing good to someone requires fulfilling someone's need, thus requires existence of evil.

Consider this scenario. If no one needed any money, you wouldnt be able to help anyone financially. If no one needed food, you wouldnt be able to feed anyone. If no one was in lack of love, you wouldnt be able to give love to anyone.

this remains true, that a lack of good is a condition for good to be provided in the first place. If God provided all good to all, no person could provide good to each other because no one would need any good from each other.

If you punish a child for being naughty, and reward him for being good, he will do right merely for the sake of the reward; and when he goes out into the world and finds that goodness is not always rewarded, nor wickedness always punished, he will grow into a man who only thinks about how he may get on in the world, and does right or wrong according as he finds advantage to himself. - Immanuel Kant

In the bowl of the sky, the sun and moon are the lamps;

The stars in the constellations are the pearls.

The fragrance of sandalwood is the incense, the wind is the fan,

And all the plants of the forest are the flowers in offering.

What a wondrous Aarti this is, O Destroyer of fear, this is Your Aarti.

Your worship service

The unstruck melody of the Shabad (Divine Word) resounds like the beat of drums.

You have thousands of eyes, yet You have no eyes.

You have thousands of forms, yet You are One.

You have thousands of lotus feet, yet You have no feet.

You are without nose, yet Your fragrance fills the air and enchants me.

The Light is in all beings, and all beings are in that Light.

By the Guru's teachings, this Light is revealed.

As it pleases You, so is the Aarti performed.

My mind is enticed by the nectar of Your lotus feet;

Night and day, I thirst for You.

Grant Your Grace, O Lord, to Nanak, the thirsty songbird,

So that he may dwell in the abode of Your Name.

Your light service

Your Name is my Aarti and my ablution, O Lord.

Without the Lord's Name, all other rituals are false.

Your Name is my seat, Your Name is my bed;

Your Name is my musk and saffron that I apply.

Your Name is my incense, Your Name is my sandalwood;

I grind it and chant Your Name, offering it to You.

Your Name is my lamp, Your Name is my wick;

Your Name is the oil I pour into it.

I light the lamp with the Light of Your Name,

And the entire world is illuminated.

Your Name is my sacred thread, Your Name is my garland of flowers;

I offer this at Your door with all eighteen loads of the world.

What You have created, I offer back to You;

Your Name itself is the fan that waves over You.

The ten directions, the eight celestial realms, the elemental powers, and the four sources of creation —

All these serve in the universe.

Says Ravidas: Your Name is my Aarti;

The True Name is the true offering to the Lord.

Incense, lamps, and clarified butter are prepared for the Aarti;

I am a sacrifice to the Lord of Lakshmi (the lotus-eyed One).

Hail, hail! All is auspicious, the Lord is ever auspicious!

Ever auspicious is the King, the Lord.

The supreme lamp, the pure wick —

You Yourself are the immaculate Lord of Lakshmi.

The devotee of Ram (Ramanand) knows the Lord;

He describes the Lord as the Perfect, Supreme Bliss.

The enchanting form of the Lord, the Fearless Govind —

Sain says: Worship the Supreme Blissful Lord.

Listen to the evening prayer, O God of gods,

The Formless, the Primal Being.

Even the Siddhas in deep meditation could not find Your limit;

They remain in Your sanctuary.

Accept this Aarti, O Pristine, Formless Lord;

Worship the True Guru, O brothers.

Brahma stands and contemplates the Vedas,

Yet the Unseen Lord cannot be seen.

With the oil of the essence (of reality) and the wick of the Name,

The lamp of the body is lit, illuminating all.

The Lord of the Universe lights this lamp;

Only the one who understands, understands.

The five primal sounds of the unstruck melody resound,

Along with the Lord holding the bow (Sarangpani).

Kabir, Your servant, performs this Aarti

To the Formless, the Liberated One.

O Gopal, this is Your Aarti.

O Merciful One, this is Your Aarti.

https://youtu.be/NBTq08Bhczg?si=0Otr8vhjddCA6Ucb

So I have about 6 phones (well 4, because 2 dont work cuz my parents ruined them).

What I find good about Xiaomi phones is that they offer high quality and good design at cheaper price.

First, its the camera which offers like 100 to 200 megapixels, depending on model. You are not going to find same sensor size and megapixel count at any other phone producer, at same price.

And 108 megapixel photos are like huge if you use that mode. 200 megapixels are even bigger. We are talking about maybe 20 to 40 megabytes per photo.

then its memory storage size. Even some very cheap Xiaomi phones have like 256 gb storage.

And RAM is easy to find at 8 GB.

take for example, Xiaomi Redmi Note 14 (phone I bought a year ago). So 256 GB memory, 8 GB RAM, and 108 megapixel camera.

You simply dont find these specs at any other phone producer selling for 150$.

the only way to find these specs at this price with some other phone producer is if you buy used old phones, and not new one.

But when it comes to buying a new phone, there are no any phone producing companies which offer new phone, with better specs and same price, or better price of same specs.

Like, most samsung phones which are not flagship have about 50 megapixel camera, with much smaller sensor than in Xiaomi.

Even if they match RAM and memory storage, they dont match camera quality.

Because camera quality depends a lot on 2 main factors: Sensor size and megapixel count.

With low megapixel count, zooming in on photo quickly results in poor quality of image, irrelevant of quality of sensor.

And smaller sensors, even with all the advances in image processing, struggle in low light.

So when Xiaomi offers 1/1.6 sensor size at 150$, you are simply not going to find same anywhere else for same price.

Xiaomi is the only company which offers flagship level similarity at price far below flagship.

And you cant even find Apple iphone with 108 megapixel camera. Only recently they moved up from 12 megapixels to 48 megapixels, while Xiaomi offers 200 megapixels at lower price.

And megapixels are important because when you zoom in image, 12 megapixel image quickly becomes blurry.

this is also true in drawing. Digital drawing at higher resolutions of image is always superior, because when you zoom in, if resolution is lower, you quickly see pixels, and there is no way to avoid it.

Likewise, phones with lower megapixel camera, it doesnt matter what quality of sensor or processing they have. Unless someone manually upscales each image he takes to a higher resolution, he will see pixels when zooming in. thats just unavoidable with lower resolution images, because those are images with bigger pixels always, and pixels become easily visible with zooming in.

1. Here what i do:
2. Better formats like you said. Site is very low effort.
3. Hire a professional coder to make the site more appealing to the viewer.
4. Create clear and understandable rules regarding in how and the way you debate.
5. Get rid of voting all together or vote without a opinion section (or allow all opinions as long as it's not hateful or low effort)
6. Create Mods who aren't part of any affliction with users and don't partake in debates. They're just an observer. This creates an unbias judgement.

1. Create different types of mods. Form mods. Debate mods. Chat mods.

1. It's not that. It's more about "you have to sound smart"
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7. My vote got deleted twice because I didn't use AI generated filler words. I explained my reasoning in the vote where I believe is wrong or right. Voting is about what side you're on and what you believe. Not about creating essays to dismantle the agruements
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9. I was literally saying same thing as one guy but since I didn't "sound smart" it got deleted
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11. Whats the purpose of voting if you're going to restrict opinions

this user messaged me, and eventually posted messages you see above.

User quit the site and server after, but I feel an obligation to copy paste her opinion as feedback for site, because thats what they were. I didnt copy more private messages, so I am not violating privacy.

there is no much point in inviting users if we cant make them stay. And I agree voting system sucks because we are not even getting enough votes from regular users. And new users have great difficulty with voting.

If we make site more difficult to use, less users will stay on site. Its as simple as that.

Alright, so all the adds which were put in place, all the money spent, didnt do much.

tho I invited a few people to discord server, and they came.

Isnt it a more simple way to grow site to simply... invite people directly instead of by ads?

Average person in stock market makes about 10% per year profit.

Gold had 47% as of now.

Silver had 135%.

My investments in silver have already basically made lots of profit, but I aint selling it yet. I keep buying more, as well as rare coins.

https://goldprice.org/

Before I type anything on smoking, just keep in mind these arent healthy advice. this isnt good for health. Of course, someone who smokes doesnt anyway place own health as highest priority in life.

But in smoking, the ultimate goal is nicotine, getting most nicotine out of one cigarette.

If you get more nicotine out of one cigarette, you also need less cigarettes per day, and spend less money per same amount of nicotine.

So my rules are:

1. Always smoke cigarette till end

2. Focus on both many puffs and deep puffs

3. Keep smoke in lungs for some time, dont exhale immediatelly

4. Exhale through nose

5. Smoke 3 cigarettes per day, but smoke 2 of them one after another

I learned that exhaling through nose makes one cigarette really hit you harder. Like, the difference is huge.

With all the crap going on in the world, I learned to stop caring much about anything. Really, person who cares a lot only suffers a lot emotionally. I think a lot of people agree  that caring gets you nowhere. Many things are simply not under your control immediately. Maybe you can affect world outcomes by prayer and magic and other reality altering techniques, but that isnt achieved by caring too much. the less you care, the more confidence you have, and more belief in own success.

Sleep induced psychosis

Long time ago I talked to some Christian who said that if you go to desert and fast with no food or water and no sleep, you begin to see demons. tho that is unecessary. Lack of sleep on its own is enough. Dehydration isnt necessary, nor is extreme heat or hunger. Extreme meditation helps, but in the end, its mainly lack of sleep which enables person to see supernatural.

There is a story in Bible where Jesus went to desert for 40 days, and saw Satan. Jesus was fasting. But he also probably didn't sleep. What Jesus saw was what anyone would saw if done the same.

Tho obviously, doing what Jesus did is risky. I don't recommend going to desert. But one can see these entities with mere lack of sleep.

Sleep induced psychosis is how you get in direct contact with supernatural. I prayed before sleep a lot and got message in my sleep about sleep induced psychosis. Yes, its legit way to see supernatural, tho once you see it, you cannot unsee. some people reject claims as being merely halucinations caused by lack of sleep. Its not.

Yes, sleep-induced psychosis and severe sleep deprivation frequently cause people to experience hallucinations that feel supernatural, such as seeing "shadow people," ghosts, or feeling a sinister presence. These experiences occur because the exhausted brain blends dream imagery with wakefulness, amplifying fear responses and creating vivid hallucinations or delusions.

Why Sleep Deprivation Feels Supernatural

Shadow Figures & Presence: You may perceive dark, hazy shapes, or feel as though someone is in the room or watching you.

Dream-Wake Blending: The brain experiences REM-like imagery while awake (microsleeps), creating vivid visual or sensory hallucinations.

Heightened Fear: Lack of sleep disrupts emotional regulation, making normal shadows or noises feel menacing or "supernatural".

Paranoia & Delusions: Intense fatigue can lead to irrational fears, believing things are spying on you or that you are in danger.

Draconian religion is about becoming God yourself.

What is God? God is supreme being and everything happens as God wants.

But becoming a God yourself is about overcoming duality.

Most people have duality: their goals, and reality.

their goals rarely match reality, which causes reality to not be according to their will.

Draconian God solves duality in one of 4 ways:

One, he makes reality bow to his goals. (alter reality)

two, he adjusts his goals, so whatever reality exists, it matches his goals and thus his will. (alter goals)

three, he has no goals, so naturally he cannot have any goal not matching reality. (abandon goals)

four, he abandons belief in reality as a whole, thus his goals become fulfilled in other worlds created by his mind (abandon reality).

these are 4 ways of the true Dragon God, 4 ways which any individual can practice, and any individual can be made successful with them.

And becoming a living God is irrelevant to belief in other Gods. Even if other Gods exist, person can still be a living God. And even if no Gods exist, person can still become a living God.

taoism teaches something similar, and taoism is truly one of greatest religions as well.

Once you learn how to discipline your mind and hack reality, you become someone so powerful, so unaffected by anything.

You become a living God.

I found this new concept of combining stoicism and machiavellism.

Stoicism is a lot about self control and detachment.

Machiavellism is about getting results.

But in many cases, self control and detachment bring results, hence the stoic Prince (combination of Machiavellism and stoicism).

The problem for Machiavelli is often miscalculation. If you place all focus on getting results as soon as possible, it is quite possible you rush and act too soon, and even ruin results.

The problem for stoicism is not enough focus on results.

The solution is a combination. You should focus on results, on achieving your goals, but you should also wait and be detached from those goals.

Stoic man simply doesn't care if he fails, and that is a big advantage which allows a more clear thinking. Machiavelli cares too much for success that it often seeks to get success as soon as possible.

Both are very strong goal oriented philosophies, which is why you need both. Stoicism teaches a lot of values which Machiavellism lacks. Machiavellism on its own appears more like some pure manipulator's calculation, while stoicism adds morality to the table, and adds more calm.

But both are correct in one thing: detachment is power.

Man who cannot truly fail in his goal is man who doesn't have a goal, or man who doesn't even care enough if he fails.

People are driven by love (their goals) and fear (negative things they want to avoid).

Stoic Prince should not be driven by love or fear in any real sense.

Fear nothing, love nothing, in any strong sense.

What you fear can be used to control you.

And what you love, can likewise be used to control you.

I dont know how many people here even play roblox, but I figured if anyone does, this might be of some interest.

I dont play as much anymore, but I have items I dont need. Now, the reward pool is limited, keep that in mind. Its first come first served.

Available rewards are for: Adopt me, grow a garden games only.

For adopt me, available rewards are 5 cracked eggs, da vinci propeller (for flying around map), ultra rare tiara item.

Basically, next who casts a vote on ultrarated debate can request to receive 5 cracked eggs in adopt me roblox. Person after who casts a vote on ultrarated debate can request to receive da vinci propeller and ultra rare tiara item.

I dont have as much items anymore because I already donated a lot to random people when I quit playing, so rewards are limited in supply right now.

But if this reward system gets more popular, sure, we can expand the reward supply by having multiple players donating rewards.

Right now about 2% of world's population plays roblox, which isnt much, but anyone seeking to start playing it can likewise find this a useful boost.

Right now, on debate craft, we have 2 systems for elo: Rated and ultrarated

Rated currently doesnt reward voting at all. It also doesnt reward quality effort. Someone who loses a debate will lose elo even if he put in a lot of effort in debate, he gets punished. And someone who placed a lot of effort to vote doesnt get any benefit in elo.

So, to put it simply:

Reward incentive for voting in "rated debates" is basically non-existent.

People who put in a lot of effort in debate, but lose, get punished and it becomes difficult to recover from loss.

there are no elo rewards for participation in a debate.

Ultrarated didnt solve the problem, because elo still only rewards wins in debate. Someone can cast many good votes in ultrarated, only to find it to be of no any elo gain, and losing debate places person lower on leaderboard irrelevant of quality of votes person gave or effort put in. System only rewards debate victory in elo, not quality of votes.

Current ultrarated was shown to be very slow, and rated was shown to make users quit the site, because once person starts losing elo, it becomes more difficult to recover it, and person feels punished for participating in a debate.

NEW Elo system - "Advnaced Elo Debate"

What I propose is not removing rated or ultrarated, or changing them. Just leave them intact for now.

What I propose is introducing a 3rd elo rating system, so when people choose "debate type", there is "advanced elo debate" among options.

What is advanced elo debate system?

It is a system designed to reward both quality and activity. Winner in debate would get most elo. But loser in debate would get elo as well. And people who vote on debate would get elo as well by voting.

Elo distribution looks like this:

Winner - 100% of Elo

Voter - 60% of elo

Loser - 40% of elo

So lets say that gained elo is 10.

Winner gets 10 elo.

Each voter gets 6 elo.

Loser gets 4 elo.

Why this system works? Because once people compete in it, debate leaderboard looks like this:

On top of leaderboard, you will naturally have people with most wins and most votes. So to be on top of leaderboard, you must not only win a lot, but also vote a lot, to be on top of leaderboard.

Behind them, there will be people who win a lot, but dont vote a lot.

Behind those, there will be people who lose a lot, but vote a lot.

Behind those, there will be people who lose a lot and dont vote a lot.

Behind those, will be people with very little activity.

Behind those, will be people with almost no activity.

this elo system creates a hierarchy where both activity and quality matters. And inactive debaters who are inactive voters end up on bottom of leaderboard eventually even if they are on top now, while active debaters and active voters who also win a lot and provide quality end up on top of leaderboard.

this elo system forces activity to keep elo ranking, while rewarding quality and activity the most.

this elo system also rewards voting. People have more reason to vote good vote on a debate because their own elo benefits from it.

this elo system rewards participation as well. People have more reason to participate more because their elo gets rewarded a bit by participating instead of being punished for participation.

this elo system is a proposed experiment. Similar elo systems exist on Modern day debate discord where more activity means you rank up more.

the proposition is to simply add a 3rd elo system. those who want ultrarated can still do ultrarated. those who want rated can still do rated. Nothing changes there. Elo in rated and ultrarated is unaffected. Users just get a 3rd option of elo system, "advanced elo", and in this elo system, people gain elo for all acceptable votes they cast on any debate in "advanced elo debate" type, and they also gain elo for participating in debate under "advanced elo debate" type, and they get elo for winning in such debate types, obviously.

this proposed system is merely a proposed experiment. If it works, we can expand it, so that other elo systems start rewarding votes as well, or that votes on any debate in rated, ultrarated or advanced elo debate, count towards "advanced elo" rating.

this elo system is simply designed to reward "winning and voting" more than anything else, but also to reward voting. We currently lack sufficient rewards for votes. A lot of debates wait too long for votes. A lot of debates end up without votes, and that works against site's activity. Quality votes currently dont carry any elo rewards, and elo rewards are only gained when winning a debate, not when casting a quality vote.

Our site needs plenty of voters as much as it needs debaters, for any elo system to work in the first place.

Its time to start rewarding voters for their votes, with rewards which matter.

Someone else suggested paying voters to vote, and that is a somewhat working idea, assuming owner can afford that. If we payed 1$ to people per vote, sure, we would suddenly get a lot of users on site who seek to earn money off this site. But that would be very difficult to afford long term, would cost thousands per month if userbase increases.

What most people fail to understand is that often the only reason they hate some people is because better people appear.

this is usually called "relative value" affected by comparison.

But the comparison actually only begins to show truth once you apply worst case standard for comparison.

to person who has many friends and plenty of options in life, such person naturally moves to best available options.

But to a very lonely person, almost any other person is welcome to be friend because alternative is no friends and no one to talk to.

this is also true in relationships. Women pick from what is best among available. But if the only available men are bad men, women will pick them.

Person who has plenty of money usually chooses other people who have plenty of money, to be friends with, and can be picky about who to hang out with, and doesnt need to be kind to most people.

Person who is very poor, on the other hand, will happily be friends with anyone generous enough to provide help.

Standards are usually made by comparison.

there are things person would never accept under any circumstances. these are "worst case" standards. Anything above them is generally accepted depending on circumstances and available options.

And people often have wrong idea about what their "worst case standards" are. But best way to establish what they are is by experiencing lack.

Experiencing lack of all better options truly shows if some option is then acceptable or not.

Same with people. You might hate trump, but if he and you were last people on Earth, you would quickly become friends because alternative would be eternal loneliness.

People often experience severe drop in standards once they actually experience a complete lack. And people who have abundance usually experience rise in their standards.

this is why stoicism is about experiencing lack, to find out if things have value when no better options exist.

Because value is a very relative thing, and depends entirely on what is available in the first place. For example, I can set my standards very high, but if nothing in reality matches them, then my standards fail and leave me in complete lack of anything to satisfy them.

So standards naturally move as reality moves. Person who lacks food for a long time appreciates food more. Person who lacks water for a longer time appreciates water more. Person who is poor appreciates more any display of kindness. Person who has complete lack, appreciates almost anything to remove a lack.

Once you realize that the only reason you hate a lot of people is because better people exist, and if those better people didnt exist, you would actually stop hating the people you hate, you begin understanding stoic philosophy more.

Because value is found in lack. Sure, if I have million dollars, I wont appreciate at all someone giving me 10$ randomly, I might even feel insulted. But if I am on streets starving, no money for food, and someone gives me 10$, I begin to see that person as my savior. Exactly same action valued completely differently due to available options.

Debby was spamming a lot, which I assume is reason she was banned.

Now, here is what I dont understand.

Site has option to hide someones posts. So anyone who hates debby can just hide her posts so he doesnt see them anymore.

I am not saying banning debby was a mistake. Having each thread be ended with AI post at some point probably gets annoying to a lot of people.

Personally, I dont care that much about Debby's spam. Its easy to scroll past it.

And maybe new users will be more entertaining, but we know from experience that new users are mostly just temporary. Getting a permanent new user is difficult, irrelevant of how many permanent users you ban.

to me, it seems pointless to ban permanent users in an attempt to gain more of permanent users.

But once you start blaming some users for site's slow growth, you enter a slippery slope. Because if site's growth keeps being slow, then you must logically ban even more users because you start from assumption that current users are responsible for that.

And as Debate art showed, even when all users from it moved to new site, debate art didnt magically gain new permanent users.

Because to gain users, you must be a hot search. When someone types "debate site", if your site doesnt come up in first 3 results, you are not a hot search.

If someone types "good debating site", and your site doesnt come up, you are not a hot search.

Being a hot search is important, because thousands of people every day search for a good debate site, and they usually get dragged into few first search results.

Algorithm is simply everything. And algorithm favors sites which payed a lot to google to place them there.

So instead of trying to attract new users which might never come to stay permanently, a better strategy is to maintain current user base.

Not everyone is happy with Debby being banned. I can understand the arguments for her ban,

but question is, will her ban make current users more active?

Will her ban make new users come more?

We know from experience once debate art started with bans and punishments for users, it didnt increase its user base, but quite the opposite.

I am not saying no one should ever be banned, but to me, it seems like ban should only be used when its obvious that it must be used.

Because that is most reasonable approach. If you are focusing on imaginary probabilities, miscalculation easily happens. Bans should only happen when its most obvious undeniable harm to site. Anything other than that risks being a miscalculation.

Project Mkultra lasted for 20 years, where US government did experiments on humans to see how to create alter personalities, in other words, entirely new people who no longer remember past, and who act according to command.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MKUltra

https://www.intelligence.senate.gov/wp-content/uploads/2024/08/sites-default-files-hearings-95mkultra.pdf

After being caught in doing this, most of documents regarding project mkultra were destroyed. You can understand why.

However, project Monarch is believed to be a sub-project of Project Mkultra, and it is believed that these projects didnt simply stop after 20 years of research.

Project Monarch is named this way for one specific reason. It creates alter personalities through trauma.

While many rejected this as just another conspiracy theory, there is a strong suggestive evidence that trauma based behavior control is applied today on mass scale.

For example, Israel's "Dahiya doctrine" is meant to control behavior and produce terrorists through causing trauma to civilians.

And the entire system in the world is put in place to cause trauma related to disobedience. It is clearly observed that once you stop repeating what news tell you, once you start thinking for yourself, you experience rejection, disapproval, condemnation...ect.

the system is designed to deter outliers.

And US didnt stop researching human behavior after project Mkultra.

two facts are most obvious in this case:

One, project Mkultra researched a lot more than what is publicly admitted. We know this because the only documents we have on project Mkultra are those which were publicly shown, with majority of documents being destroyed, what else was there?

Fact two, US had every interest to continue project Mkultra in secret. Even today, USA has "top secret" projects where money goes to, and no one knows what those projects are.

It finally arrived. This will lead Meow to glory!

After getting those 15 kg dumbbells, and about few weeks of lifting, I had an injury of hand where apparently my hand bones arent strong enough to do biceps curls with 15 KG. the injury forced me to stop working out for some time.

While my muscles can handle that weight, my wrists and my hand bones seem to struggle. I also had problem with doing push ups due to weak wrists which cant handle pressure well. It took me some time to reach 20 push ups and gradually strengthening wrists.

Anyway, I was thinking between getting creatine or protein powder, and there seems to be a clear winner.

Creatine is much cheaper. 500 grams of creatine can last up to 100 days, where 5 kg of protein can last 100 days, but 5 kg of protein is much more expensive than 500 grams of creatine.

When it comes to price, winner was obvious. I only need 5 grams of creatine per day, so 500 grams of creatine last over 100 days probably, and the price of creatine 500 grams is about 25$.

Also, creatine benefits the brain as well much more than protein does, which is one of reasons I chose to get it.

I actually ordered mass gainer before, but delivery got cancelled, apparently seller out of supplies. But mass gainer is basically mosty sugar, and I can simply buy sugar itself instead of buying mass gainer.

But creatine is definitely special. While I can get protein from eggs, creatine seems to be much more valuable resource, as valuable as sugar, and it is more difficult to get it from food when you are a vegetarian.

So yeah, right now I can do 45 repetitions with 10 kg dumbbell. I will see if, after creatine, that number significantly increases (creatine is supposed to give about 20% boost).

For years, I used to believe trans people should be encouraged to be trans, that it is good for them.

But now I am thinking that I was actually wrong, because we generally shouldn't encourage people to castrate themselves because that reduces birth rates.

Also, and this is important, male to female transition actually encourages feminized brains, which are brains less focused on logic and more focused on looks and approval of others.

I don't think we should encourage mentality based on valuing looks and especially not of valuing approval, because person who is correct doesn't need approval.

I see a lot of people smoking cigarettes incorrectly.

they will smoke one right in the morning, then another one an hour later, and so on, they eventually end up smoking at least 5 to 10 cigarettes per day, if not much more. People who use vape are even worse.

I am of course someone who believes in opposites, presence and absence. So I know that when you are smoker, you must have a time in the day when you dont smoke at all.

this is why I use rule of half.

For example, when I wake up, I will wait until half of the day before I light a cigarette.

And when I light a cigarette, I dont smoke just one, but 2 or 3 one after another.

And for rest of day after that, I dont smoke.

So I only smoke 2 to 3 cigarettes per day.

And I get good dose of dopamine from it.

the reason I decided to become smoker is because I realized its almost irrelevant at this point. My parents ever since I was born smoked in same room where I was, making me effectively a second hand smoker for entire life, causing me many health problems.

So I realized, if I am going to inhale smoke anyway, and suffer health problems, might as well actually smoke so I at least get some benefits as well.

Machiavelli wasnt born rich, just in educated middle class.

He rose to power through political skills, getting government position.

then he also fell, was thrown in prison and severely tortured.

Most people would be broken by torture Machiavelli endured. But not Machiavelli. He endured torture, and out of it, came even stronger, using all his experience about betrayal to create his ultimate work: the prince.

this work was based on life of experience, betrayals, and pretending which exists in society.

Machiavelli wrote his book from most painful experience. He learned in the most brutal way truths about society, its masks, its false emotional displays...

His work is a product of pure experience. He is not someone who just wrote out of imagination or research. He wrote his work after he experienced complete fall, betrayal, brutal attacks, degradation, mocking, after entire world turned against him.

Instead of being broken and forgotten, he created a legendary work and became a legend himself, because he wasnt broken by experience, but he used his experience to expose society and politics for what it truly is: a brutal game where everyone wears a mask, and weak ones wont be cared for, but trampled upon.

World rewards power the most, and that is simply fact of life. the ones with power can get away with doing things for which ones without power get ruthlessly punished.

Machiavelli truth is:

1. What you depend upon is what controls you
2. If you depend on someone, that person controls you
3. You have no friends. Everyone has interests, and "friendship" is just current interest
4. It is only when you completely fall, when you can see who is still on your side
5. Dont seek to be understood by people who have interest to misunderstand
6. the less you depend on approval and validation of others, the more sovereign you become
7. Goal is to become independent, impossible to be controlled, and impossible to be crushed
8. Dont think emotionally, and dont react to provocations.
9. Use economy of warfare. Only do something when it achieves goal the best.
10. When people mock you, your silence defeats their mocking, and your later response crushes them
11. Become ghost. Remove yourself. Use absence. When you leave, you stop being target and people who mocked you start fighting each other.

Most debaters on modern day debate are trolls.

they are not interested in debating, but in personal attacks. For example, instead of responding to argument, some will say "He is probably from India".

And some are even worse trolls who pretend to support something and then turn against it in middle of conversation, pretending to be "convinced" (I have seen same person do this multiple times on same topic in few days).

Because modern day debate is overrun by trolls and teenagers, one cannot really debate them in any way which is usually done in serious debates, because they are not interested in debate, but just personal attacks.

And when Ad Hominem becomes a debating standard on some site, one must use different methods to counter it.

the best possible method is Machiavelli delayed response rule.

Simply, you:

One, make your argument

two, they respond with Ad hominem

three, you delay response.

Simply dont respond immediately. Let them wait for you to respond, or let them throw more Ad hominems while you say nothing.

the minimum waiting time to respond is usually 7 seconds after they are fully done responding, but a better way is to wait few minutes before giving another argument.

In fact, the ideal way is to just post argument, and when you see them responding with ad hominem, just dont respond at all, close app, and then open it again after five minutes, and post another argument while completely ignoring their personal attacks.

And doing this repeately exhausts them. Because if you post one argument every 5 minutes, and they respond with bunch of personal attacks each time, you are essentially forcing them to write much more than you do.

Because to each argument, they are forced to respond with 3 or more ad hominem replies.

Machiavelli way is simply, dont argue, make a claim, wait for them to respond, then delay your response for minutes before making another claim.

this forces only two possible outcomes: they either write more personal attacks each time, looking desperate and insane, or they stop with personal attacks.

But never respond with personal attacks to them, but force them to exhaust their personal attacks.

In Bible, it says that only virgins go directly to heaven.

So yeah, it doesnt matter if I am satanist, I can convert in time if necessary and because I am a virgin, I go straight to heaven.

Also, I realized that the reason I never go outside to meet real women is because I actually dont want to.

It is simply better do be a virgin and do scientific research instead.

Because relationships first cost a lot of money, then they are actually boring because while I am an expert in psychology and all other science, I find it incredibly boring to hold conversations with regular people and talk about their goals and their achievements.

And woman's goals are silly as well. I really have no interest in talking about how no one understands her, and how person who commented on her looks actually has a bad relative.

I mean, no offense, but the main reason I dont do casual talk is because I find it so incredibly boring to the point where I have to pretend a lot, just to be able to have casual talk.

Because my mind is entirely made out of logic, I only think in terms of "goal and goal's achievement", and my goals generally arent endless superficial comparison talk of different people and situations.

https://youtu.be/jdFpsib08Mc?si=FG9j5MCNsMPaOff8

Israel released video of Benjamin Bibi.

Problem?

Video is generated by AI, Bibi has 6 fingers (common mistake in AI video making).

If real Bibi still exists, why Israel needs AI to make Bibi?

USA killed Ayatollah at start of war.

Many people thank USA for killing Ayatollah.

Previous Ayatollah wanted peace and lack of escalation.

Now Iran has a new more advanced Ayatollah who wants more escalation.

I say more advanced Ayatollah, because new Ayatollah is younger and more capable.

trump is experiencing brain damage because trump only sleeps 4 hours a day. this causes more miscalculations.

trump claimed Iran's navy is destroyed, which is not true. Iran's navy still places mines and intercepts oil ships

Iran has lost less than 0,1 % of his troops. As US admitted, US target mapping system is outdated, and US doesnt even know what it is hitting, which is why it confused school for military base.

Iran lost less than 0,1% of its troops, but has destroyed 15% of world oil production in just one week. It is predicted it can destroy 40% of world oil in next 3 weeks, and at that point, US economy is likely to collapse, as well as economy of Europe.

Only 20% of Americans support trump's war.

80% of Americans oppose trump's war, which is a surprise that majority in USA is making a rational decision for a change.

Approximately

41% to 42% of adult women in the USA are considered obese, based on data from 2017-2023. With over two-thirds of women over age 20 having overweight or obesity, this equates to tens of millions of individuals, with higher prevalence rates observed among Black and Hispanic women. 

1. Prevalence: Studies from August 2021–August 2023 found that the obesity rate among women was 41.3% to 41.4%.
2. Trend: Obesity prevalence among U.S. women has risen significantly, from 25.4% in 1988-1994 to over 41% in 2017-2018.

the reason why being gay is on the rise in USA is because women in USA are becoming uglier and uglier. Almost every second woman is fat.

this means that even when we dont take into account any other beauty factor, almost 50% of US women are unattractive by default.

this on its own leaves about 50% of men lacking in any available attractive women, causing them to increasingly find comfort in each other's arms.

Further, because 80% of women (even ugly ones) chase about 20% of men, male loneliness is on the rise.

Yes, male loneliness is rising

, frequently described as an epidemic. Since 1990, the share of U.S. men with no close friends has quintupled to 15%, with young men (18-23) experiencing the steepest declines, often reporting that "no one really knows me". This crisis is linked to declining marriage rates, fewer friendships, and emotional stoicism. 

Key Data on the Rise of Male Loneliness:

1. Shrinking Friendships: Only 27% of men have six or more close friends, down from 55% in 1995, as reported by The Survey Center on American Life.
2. The "No Friends" Crisis: Around 15% of men report having no close friends at all, a figure that has increased significantly over the past three decades.
3. Young Men Particularly Affected: A survey found that 1 in 4 young men (under 30) reports feeling lonely "a lot of the day".
4. Lack of Emotional Support: Research from Equimundo shows that a majority of men feel they have only one or two people they can confide in, or none at all. 

In prisons, lack of women for males causes many to turn gay. And now, in USA, 50% of men by default cant have any attractive woman.

Being gay is on the rise because it is a logical choice of a man surrounded by fat women, and this is even when we dont take into account the non-fat but ugly or expired ones (women over 25 age).

I never really understood people who keep defending bad parents. Bad parents are main reason why next generation becomes worse.

But because we live in world where 95% of people are retarded, and the remaining 5% dont have any real power, we end up with result where world is ran by retards and future generations are raised by mentally ill population.

When you see some retarded person punching himself, that is actually the image of entire world as it is now.

But people who dont have smart brains cant figure out causation process where:

Person X does A, A causes B, B causes C, C causes harm to person X.

Because people with small brains are only capable of seeing most obvious, and completely incapable of seeing any wide distance causation chain, these people are like retards who punch themselves using wide distance causation chain, and then wondering why they were punched.

Wide distance causation chain is actually impossible to comprehend for most people, because most people cant think further than "A causes B".

What is worse, most people cant even properly understand causes and causation.

this is why they dont make being a bad parent a bigger crime, because their brains arent capable of understanding that most of problems for future generations come from bad parents.

But without understanding wide distance chains, they cannot make the connection of "bad parents = biggest cause of problems in society".

Because wide distance causation chain happens over decades, it does not happen in time short enough for stupid person to comprehend or remember.

So one of biggest causes for all evil in society is somehow treated as a less serious crime, and in many cases not even a crime at all.

Many people, especially many men, live in this delusion that women feel love. And unconditional love is even greater delusion.

Let us first describe what happens in nature, so we clearly understand what happens.

In nature, female doesnt feel love towards a male partner. In fact, in many species, male and female dont even spend time together much outside breeding.

And what can be observed by all experiments is that female doesnt have love or standards.

What would be love? Love would be if female was with one partner under all circumstances.

However, that does not happen.

Circumstances in the first place dictate which partner female will choose.

For example, a female lion doesnt unconditionally love a lion.

Her choice of a lion depends on what is available and what is preferable among available options.

For example, even the least preferable lion, as experiments showed, becomes preferable when he is the only option.

So woman's choice is not based on love, but comparison of available options for reproduction. this is why women choose some of worst of men when they become only option, because evolutionary trait which forces attention seeking and reproduction behavior means even the worst of men become desirable when they are the only option, because the only alternative is not reproducing at all and being lonely, which is worse from an evolutionary standpoint.

Woman's choice is made entirely based on seeking reproduction and comparing available options.

this is why women will often pretend to be unavailable or pretend to be not interested. this delay is because they are comparing available options.

Lion mating choice in the wild

Yes. In nature, female lions often choose mates from the males that are available at the time, and a male that was not previously preferred can become acceptable if he becomes the only or dominant option. But the process is influenced by several biological and social factors.

1. Lions live in prides controlled by a few males

A pride usually contains:

1. Several lionesses
2. 1–3 dominant males (sometimes a coalition of brothers)

These males gain control by fighting and defeating previous males. Once they control the pride, they become the primary mating partners for the females.

So the female's “choice set” is restricted to the males that currently control the pride.

2. Female lions still show preferences

When multiple males are present, lionesses often prefer males that show:

1. Strength and dominance
2. Large/dark mane (signals health and testosterone)
3. Successful fighters
4. Good territory control

These traits increase the chance that cubs will survive.

3. If only one male is available

If only one male controls the pride:

1. Females will mate with him even if he wasn't previously preferred.
2. Refusing indefinitely would mean not reproducing, which is worse from an evolutionary perspective.

So availability strongly shapes choice.

4. Timing also matters

Lionesses come into estrus (fertile period) only for a short time. During that period:

1. They may mate dozens of times per day.
2. If only one male is present, he becomes the automatic mating partner.

5. Male takeover changes everything

When a new male coalition takes over a pride:

1. They often kill existing cubs (infanticide).
2. This forces females back into fertility sooner.
3. The females then mate with the new males, even though they were not previously part of the pride.

This shows how dominance and availability override earlier preference.

✅ Summary

Female lions do have preferences, but in the wild:

1. Their choices are limited to the males currently controlling the pride.
2. A male that was not attractive before can become the mating partner if he becomes the only or dominant available male.

So attraction in lions is partly preference, but strongly shaped by availability and power.

why prayers fail comes from 5 reasons:

One, person isnt convinced that prayer will work

two, person doesnt talk as if prayer already came true

three, person doesnt act as if prayer already came true

four, person isnt making effort

five, person doesnt consider himself competent

the fifth reason is most important.

Most people start their prayers from a position of complete incompetence. they say "please God help me I am weak and incapable bla bla bla" - and this version of prayer is like saying "I want to fix a problem I cant fix"

In order for prayer to work, you must consider yourself capable, powerful of achieving your prayer. You are not begging God. You are an ally with God working together to solve a problem, and you end with conviction that problem is already solved.

But you must have conviction that you are perfectly capable of solving problem on your own. God just works by your command so you dont have to.

In other words, you dont beg. You command. Because you are God as well. Only an incapable person considers himself incapable.

the reason why prayers usually dont work is because people consider themselves incapable of achieving what they want.

they beg for help.

When you beg for help, Gods will merely laugh at your incompetence.

true Monad doesnt beg. He commands. He says "be done", and it is done.

I consider myself an equal ally of God. I dont consider myself inferior to God. Because really, no one likes beggars. Everyone loves powerful and those who dont depend on help.

the only ones who beg for help are the losers.

And the only ones who love beggars are those who want them to stay beggars.